Everlasting love

It's Okayy(:

- Sunday, November 28, 2010 -

"Keep yourself in good company"

"Pray"

"Allow yourself to feel"

"Remember the good times"

"Focus on God"

3 weeks. I wonder what will happen at the end of it(: Whatever it is, it can only be good. God's the author of every story. I'm thankful for everything that has happened so far. Thankful for my family, my friends, and every experience that He has allowed for me to go through. So much to journal but words fail me at times. God understands, so it's okay.

I'm excited for this december to come. There're so many things happening:

1)Mission trip

2)Sleepover at Syuhh's

3)Breakthrough Camp

4)Semester ending

5)Christmas carnival, multi media production

Flying off in 2 weeks! So many things to prepare but I'm psyched to see how God will work despite the short runway. For now, preparations are in place and I know God is on the move :D Okay, time to make Sunday productive(:

< 11:44 AM >

Week is Ending

- Thursday, November 25, 2010 -

We love, because God first loved us. Love freely. You never know how that can impact a person's life.

The week's been great. I'd expected some form of confrontation today because I reached home way too late last night. But my parents let it go so for that, I'm really thankful. But no more second time(: Last day of school tomorrow! Sort of(:

Today was awesome. Buffet with uni clique. Haha. The food wasn't fantastic but the company was:D I couldn't join them after the buffet because I was wayyy too tired since I only had a 4 hour shut eye. Went home and it was raining. Tried to sleep and nap but didn't really succeed so I'm still really tired now): But well, sleep time soon and tomorrow's the gathering!! Hehe. Gonna get home early, prepare some stuff, cook, have fun and what not(: Looking forward to it. Okay, sleeeeeeep.

< 10:32 PM >

In Better Hands

- Monday, November 22, 2010 -

Weekends were super good! It really made up for the horrible Thursday and Friday(:

Saturday:
Prepared to go for Hui Qi's wedding at SAJC. Reached there early and didn't get lost. Miracle eh. Haha. Bumped into Jinwan and Edward there because they knew the groom. Met Jinwan's friends who were at her birthday party the sunday few weeks back. heh. Familiar but couldn't really recall. The wedding itself was really touching. Almost cried:') Huiqi looked exceptionally stunning but I think she was exhausted with all the phototaking and all. Was good, managed to talk to her after the ceremony with Shirley and Ale:D I also saw alot of my ex teachers from secondary school but I think they couldn't recognise me. Ah wellss. Haha.

After that, Ale and I headed to woodlands to chill at CWP macs. Played Monopoly Deal and she altered the rules>< HAHA. We played one game where we had unlimited moves, with every other rule still applied. Another game was being able to hold unlimited number of cards with every other rule applied. I lost all ): Saturday was losing day. Seriously. But I had so much fun. Hahaha. Decided to go off after I lost the 4th game (in a row). While on the bus, we laughed till I cried. She's ridonkulously hilarious. Love you Ale(:

Ushering duty. And oh my, it was quite stressful. I was leading my girls and the guys. The feeling was so familiar and I thoroughly enjoyed it even though it was so hard keeping track of who was doing what since the usher team that day was about 17 strong. But they had fun and I definitely won't mind serving alongside them. Cannot wait for our wg gathering. Missing all of them so very much): Everything went well, packed up and de-briefed the ushers. They did an awesome job that day:)

Went to Civics macs with Ale to unwind and pig out at Macs. Haha. Mcwings was nice! Sat there and talked before deciding to scout for a place to play Monopoly Deal. hehe. Super fun although trying to sit down was a hassle since we were both in a dress. Jon came to find us and we played a couple of games, of which I lost ALL. Seriously. I should just play Monopoly Deal with myself): SAD. Haha. Had fun playing with his camera. SUPER COOL. LX 5 and Aletheia made a 'wrong' video. And how nice, it's on Facebook. Laughed so hard when I saw the video. Ale is one of a kind. Headed home and was super super brain dead.

Sunday:

CG lunch got cancelled so I woke up early to wrap Grace's present. My wrapping skills not very pro but I think she doesn't mind lah. hahahaha. Oh wells. Mark came over to swim but I refused to go down to swim because I was lazy and lazy. LOL. Headed off after I was done and we reached late:/ My fault. haha. But the party was fun. Khatib Macs:D First Macs party in my life. But it was not too bad. Sat with my group of girls and Mark after the party to talk and laugh. Time flew like anything. Soon it was 6pm. Left the place and Mark and I sat in his car trying to decide what to do. HAHA. Called Jon to ask if he wanted to meet but that guy was napping-.- So we went to Orchid Country Club to just walk about. Not a bad place actually(: Then we saw the moon which was soooo pretty. Drove to some place quite near Sunset Bar where it was near the waters and the moon was in fulll view. This was just one of the many photos Mark tried to take with my camera. Good effort nonetheless(:

Got bored staring at the moon after a while. Drove to sunset bar to check out the place. Apparently, it's popular for it's hot wings. Didn't get to try because it was full house so we drove out. Halfway, we decided we were hungry and then had an awesome idea to go Chomp Chomp to eat. By that time, I was HUNGRY. Hehe. I was happppyyyyy because the food was super super good.

There was Carrot cake, chicken wings, Hokkien mee, Lala, and Sugarcane juice. WAH. I didn't realise I was full until I put down my chopsticks. By then, I was beyond full and it was sooo uncomfortable. Walked around to find Durian Mousse and FOUND IT. Happiness much. Bought one container home for my family to try. It was nearing 10 30pm so we left the place. Detoured to commonwealth and then it was HOME. Haha. What a day! I think we went to almost every part of Singapore. But I had a lot of fun(((((:

Went home and had a conversation with Angelina and Jon. HAHAHA. Quite amusing(: It's hard trying to juggle a phone conversation and msn convo at the same time. Offlined around 1 30am /2am because I was getting tired. Was on the phone with Jon trying to plan Friday's gathering. hehe. So exciting! Can't wait for Friday to comeee(: heh. Was quite tired and I think I dozed off halfway. lol. Hung up at 3am i think. Super tired.

WAH. Long post. Haha. Longest one i think. And todayyyy, I'm gonna meet syuhh at cwp starbucks to study! hehe. Cannot wait((: Love starbucks date! Ok, time to get some things done. Test tomorrow, haven't study. GAH. Ok bye! It's gonna be an awesome Monday. I feel it. hahaha.

< 11:03 AM >

IMY

- Friday, November 19, 2010 -

FINALLY THE WEEKENDS. Despite having wednesday off this week, it felt like such a draggy week. I've no idea why. Maybe it's because Thursday and Friday just weren't the best of days. I don't understand my emotions sometimes. One moment, everything's fine and great. The next moment, everything is crashing. Maybe it's just how small little things irritate and then they accumulate to tear you down especially after a tiring day. That was thursday night. I hated every bit of it. Maybe it was the frustration of having to study for the test and cancelled plans. Aiyah. What matters is that God never fails(: Despite having tears as my prayers, listening to my ipod helped so much. I found great comfort in Before the Morning and Faithful:) And knowing I had friends who cared made me feel thankful. Thank you God. Really.

I'm actually looking forward to the weekends! Wedding tomorrow in the afternoon, Ushering duty and service! Then sunday is cg outing at some random place and then Grace's birthday party. Hehe. YAY. Maybe a catch up session with Andrew(: SEE HOW. Heehee.

I'm painting my nails now. Haha. Been so long since I last did this. Specially for HuiQi's wedding tomorrow(: I'm so happy for herr!! She was my favouritest teacher in secondary school, brought me to Covenant, introduced me to WEB and became my WGL. ^^ Can't wait to see her tomorrow!

< 10:33 PM >

Nothing Better

- Wednesday, November 17, 2010 -

Someone rewind and press play. I want today to repeat itself and not end. It was such a great day(: Couldn't ask for a better day. Had an arranged meet up with Melissa and Siew En to eat meatballs and drink koi. But decided not to head to Ikea because it's gonna be crazy crowded since it was a public holiday. HOW SAD. I havent got to try their meatballs. WHY. So yeah, met at Bishan instead and ate pizza hut. Mel and I were h.u.n.g.r.y while we waited for Siew en. Ahem ahem, who was late. haha. Finally she came and lunch was super good:D Walked about and went to buy koi. Happy ah. Queue was super long but koi was superb although I wished mine was sweeter. Heh. Walked about somemore and siew en had to go off to meet her ahem. LOL. Mel and I sat at the bus stop and took a trip down memory lane as we talked about JC days. I think for many of us in the clique, we're willing to go back to those days and re live it again. I don't think I'll be able to blog enough about how much I miss us as a group. Hopefully Christmas party and sleepover WILL materialise. I will so enjoy it(:

Was on the way home when Ale called asking if I wanted to study. Had tentative plans for the night so made another call to see if it was on. Postponed the plan and met Ale. Hehee. Had fun drinking milk tea and studying at Mos Burger. Teehee. I love you Ale. Cannot wait for camp! haha. Thankful for our friendship and just being able to share my heart with her(:

So much on my mind. But aiyah, so lazy to blog it out. Haha. Bye.

< 11:49 PM >

Selegie Road

- Tuesday, November 16, 2010 -

I would love to get my hands on that(: Considering how awesome the weather has been, that would just top it off. Not to mention snuggling up in my bed after that. Bliss :D

Monday was splendid(: No Monday blues at all. Haha. Who gets Monday blues when you've no school? Heh. So yeah, woke up around 12pm and headed out to Plaza Sing. Sadly, I didn't get to try the Eskimo drink that everyone speaks of. But it's alright cos I got to try good chicken rice and the Rocho Road Tau Hway. HAHA. I had no idea it was famous until I got home and my mom asked me why I didn't buy some home. Lol. Next time, I.must.remember. It wasn't too bad(:

Oh yes, I want to watch Rapunzel when it comes out. Laughed to myself as I watched the trailers. Oh my. So cute. And the guy is quite handsome. Yes, I know he's a cartoon but whatever lah.

TOMORROW. I cannot wait to try ikea meatballs and drink koi(: Heehee. So excited pleasseee. I've been craving for koi for way too long. hehe. It's not overated okay!:D Ohhhkayy, I shall conquer my readings and enjoy the nice weather on my bed!

< 8:44 PM >

Nothing to Lose

- Monday, November 15, 2010 -

One of the few full strength pictures we had. But this was before graduation. Everything was easier then. It was good to wake up and know I'll be seeing them in school. Now that we're in different schools, it's been incredibly difficult to arrange a meet up. Most of the time, it's the same people meeting up. The rest are oh so busy. Its sad ): I long for one meet up where we can ALL be there. I miss the great group dynamics we had, the laughter and tears that brought us all so close together. I look through my journal and found struggles that I had to walk through but what made it much easier was having them by my side. Even now, when we meet up, it's always like those good old days. We laugh till our sides hurt and we tease each other like there's no tomorrow and we do the stupidest things like we're 16. I believe our friendship will last. I really do(: Hopefully wednesday's meatball and koi outing will happen despite the small number of us able to meet. Maybe even drop by woodlands and see if Syuhh and Safa can come out for Starbucks :D I'm so excited. Love all these meet ups with them. Away from the stress and chaos of Uni life. I miss you girls. Very often I do. I'm glad for msn, sms and phone calls. Hehe. Love you all to bits.

Uni life has been great although it has its own set of challenges. I love my friends(: And I do desire that same closeness I have with my JC friends. We need to do something wacky together and enjoy it. haha. Maybe a sleepover or something. Haha! Love you girls too. (I doubt you all read this space anyway.)

Monday today(: NO SCHOOL. Hehe. I can't be happier. And I've officially striked off my book review on the list of to-dos. It's such a huge relief and a burden off my shoulders. Took almost the entire day. Plus, nutrition lab is submitted too! 2 huge assignments off my list(: Next up, all the many many many readings that I've neglected. Should be alright! Hehe. Oh my. It's 2am already. 9am wake up call later and maybe heading out:) Monday will be good. Monday blues no more. HAPPY ALREADY :D

< 2:05 AM >

Words I Would Say

- Sunday, November 14, 2010 -

If only that were possible(:

At times, I really don't know what to do. I can't say anything to make you feel better and yet, the irony is that you dont need me to say anything. But I still feel that obligation to. The silence, it's so deafening sometimes but it's the only thing that seems right. We require honesty but it's not possible now. Especially when the mind isn't clear. After the call, I could only pray. My heart felt hardened. It came as a surprise. Just a minute ago, tears stinged my eyes but as I prayed, I felt that nothingness. It's something I don't understand and probably won't. But I take comfort in God's promises. I know He will lead the way. I know He is true. And I know we are all safe in His hands. Whatever small signs, I'll take note. I'm my own person, not a replica of you. That would be wrong if it happens. This morning, I hope was really a breakthrough. I'll keep praying.

The rain is great. But it's scary how it's already 3 40pm. Almost half the day is gone. Sunday please slow down ):

Don't be possessively clingly.

I'm reaching for You. Jesus I need you. And it's interesting how klove is playing Words I Would Say by Sidewalk Prophets.

< 3:21 PM >

- Monday, November 8, 2010 -

Pretty photos yet again. This is my Monday (:

Sheldon. You are the funniest(:

This has happened so many times ):

Hehe. I like you pooh!

< 7:58 PM >

A New Week?!

- -

WHAT! It's Monday already? T.T So fast.

The weekends went by really quickly. So quickly, I can't believe 2 days just went by like that. And I wasn't the most productive. Must be because there aren't any tests or assignments due. I like slacking the day away, taking things slow. Heh. That was pretty much my Sunday. Nothing to do(:

Saturday proved to be really good. Went to church early and did a bit of reading. Talked to Michelle for a bit and said hi to Arielle. She's so adorable. Then, it was briefing for SST with Kat and then duty started. I was pleasantly surprised as to how smoothly everything went despite my initial fears. I know I shouldn't live by fear. It's probably something I need to work through, talk through and process through. Get to the bottom of why I'm so fearful and why I can't seem to overcome it. It's not like it's my first time being usher i/c. Sigh. They say after doing it a few times, it would become a routine. I wonder why I don't feel that way though. But aside from that, it was alright(: Stayed back for a while to pack up and write a birthday card for Sarah :D (HAPPY BIRTHDAY!)

Went off with Jon, Jerome and a new guy. I can't really remember his name but I know he's from Nepal. It was nice talking to him(: Haha. Went for supper with my girls and some sec 4 guys. Laughed and talked. Thanks for cornering me ah girls -.- Tell you girls next time. lol. It was nearing 10 45pm and they had to leave. Jerome never appeared after we left him in church to finish up the card. So Jon and I went to the bus interchange to sit down and check out some stuff on the laptop. Chilled abit since it was kinda early. Later, I met another one of his friend. She's really nice, fun loving too. But I had to catch my last train so couldn't join them for supper. But it was a good night :) Late night call till about 3am saw me falling asleep and then my phone died ><

I hope for a good week (:

idkhow.

< 2:53 PM >

Firework

- Saturday, November 6, 2010 -

I was just browsing through some Tumblr sites and the pictures are so cute :D Sigh, hours just go by as I click next, next, next and sheepishly smile at some of them. So yes, here are some of the nice ones I found(:

Oh my brain.

Awww. So sweet(:

Hahaha. This made me smile.

Don't deny! They DO look somewhat similar.

I love the long weekends(: 4 days away from school and tuesday everything begins. I'm gonna enjoy. My brothers aren't home this weekend so I feel like the only child but it's a good change for once. No nonsense and I can do things without the fear of one of them hiding in a dark corner waiting to scare the daylights out of me.

Yesterday's prayer retreat at Botanical Gardens was a good reflection time about this past year. So much things surfaced and I didn't realise so much has happened in this one year. Glad for this journey. Maybe one of these days I should open up my journal and re read what has transpired this year(: Before the prayer retreat, I went over to Ale's place for a sleepover. Really enjoyed my time there. Another one soon!

And I'm usher i/c today. I need to stop thinking about making mistakes and take it as it comes. Don't wanna lose focus of serving God with my fear of making blunders. So yes, despite the total change in today's service, it'll be good. On a sidenote, Zephy, you owe me big time. HAHAHA. Ok, I kid.

Note to self: Leave the house in 2 hours. Start preparing to leave the house in 1 hour.

Tonight will be a good night(:

< 1:58 PM >

Yesterday

- Wednesday, November 3, 2010 -

Couldn't ask for a better Tuesday(:

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Refuge in Him

- Monday, November 1, 2010 -

Boy am I glad for the new week!(:

The past week was one rollar coaster. But I've learnt quite a bit, through all that praying and talking with various ones. Through those difficult, tearful nights, God's love and comfort was always there. When my heart wanted my will, God's still small voice always reminded me that His will is the best(: When my mind was full of thoughts, I found my outlet in journalling and pouring out my heart through words of prayer to Him. When I felt alone, He was the one I turned to. And I know that when I can't hear Him, He still hears every word I pray.

Of course, there were times I wanted to seek advice from people around me since I'll get immediate answers but everywhere I turned, I was directed back to God first. And I can't be more grateful. Seeking Him first helped me sort out my thoughts and keep things in perspective. So thankful for my friends too:D

New week! And I know with God's strength, each day will get easier. The struggles will still be there but eyes always on Him(: Wonder what the future holds though. We'll see.

Hey you! Last night was an answered prayer. You probably didn't know it but talking things through did help alot. Thanks.

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