Everlasting love

- Thursday, December 23, 2010 -

I thank God for my results(: In the midst of everything that's been happening, I conveniently forgot to give God the glory when I saw my results. I was quite certain I would fail World Civilisations. It was such a horrid module and the exams were just terrible. But by God's grace, I managed a C-. It didn't kill my GPA and I'm thankful.

"Hi God,

Thank you so much for seeing me through this semester. There were quite a few distractions and admidst everything, You were still faithful. Thank You for everything. Thank you for how you reminded me to be thankful today. I love you God. Thank you for loving me.

In Jesus' Name,

Amen"

I was feeling awfully grumpy after waking up from an hours' nap. Feels like an emotional ride these two days. Last night also. Felt a strange urge to cry. Thank you for being there for me(: But yeah, it's been weird. So yes, with all that grumpiness, I went to visit my grandmother in the hospital. It was then, as I silently prayed for her, that I made it a choice to be thankful. Not my own decision, because I would rather have just went along with my emotions. I believe it was the Holy Spirit. So after that, once I gave thanks, the feeling disappeared. Spiritual warfare? Tiredness? Loss of focus? Probably. Time to be on my knees.

Was chatting with Jon q and was reminded again about the pre service prayer. It started out pretty strong. But the novelty wore off, and my own prayer life took a downhill turn. It was then, I decided that it wouldn't be best if I was trying to pray for the sake of praying for the ministry. It was always at the back of my mind. There were times of guilt, shame and the feeling of letting God down. I knew, however, that God didn't love me less and His forgiveness, He would not withold. I'm not exactly sure where I stand in my spiritual walk. Neither here nor there. I long for more dependency on God(: Lord, are you trying to say something? Once again, time to be on my knees.

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Trust in Your love

- Wednesday, December 22, 2010 -

I feel very blessed to say the least(:

So much things to say, but most belong in the journal.

Mission trip was great. I'd prefer to share in person though, so ask me if you want to know! :D

2010 is ending. Christmas is coming. 2011 is coming. I'm excited.

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Sawadika

- Friday, December 10, 2010 -

That's what I'll be. Or something like that. But only for the next 8days. Haha. MISSION TRIP. It's finally here. I'm alomst done packing, just need to stuff in a few more stuff and I'm good to go. Hehe. First mission trip ever and I can't be more excited:D Hello Thailand, goodbye Singapore(((: I'm anticipating this trip so much because I can't wait to see what God has planned and to see what He is already doing in that land. It'll be an exciting journey there. Looking forward to the various spiritual experiences that will happen. Tomorrow this time, I'll probably be in Bangkok. Cannot.believe.it.

Exams are finally over. Huge relief(: Really tired now. Probably finish up the packing, and then take a nap and spend some time with my family before heading off tomorrow. teehee:) It'll be good, for sure. I can't wait to see the stars. Haha. Singapore so little stars so I'm psyched to go over and marvel at the stars :D

(: WMY.

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32 hours

- Sunday, December 5, 2010 -

2 more days to exams. GAH. UGC is such a pain sometimes. What world civilisation :/ Ah wells, I hope everything stays in my mind. I'm not one who has very good photographic memory. "My life" as Ale would say. She on the other hand, has finished her exams and constantly forgets that I'm not done. Haha. I hopeeee for Tuesday to come quickly. Then I can look forward to so many thing even though I still have Nutrition exam on Friday but that one is alright. Tuesday tuesday tuesday. 2 more days. 48 hours. It can't be THAT bad right. (Justin is behind me. Stalking my fingers. It's scary. Hahahah. Hi Justin, go back to your world of Maple and stop reading out loud what Im typing. Hehe. Thank you. Oh yeah, help me take a cup of cold water. Thanks. I like the song Sweet Serendipity. ILY lah) Haha. Okay. He's not budging so I'll just continue with this space.

SO. I'm taking a short break from my studies and just chill by the computer. How exciting. i know right -.- 5 more days before i fly and I haven't start packing. I'm not sure if i should be worried. Ahaha.

Hey you, itirdlyal(:

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We Knew

- Friday, December 3, 2010 -

IT'S FRIDAY ALREADY!:D

And December has begun(: I love the rain and how it adds a cosy feel to the day. That's if I'm not caught in the rain.

The sleepover was really fun. Probably the first we ever had even though it was only 3 of us. The 4am breakfast did materialize. Haha. The funny thing was that we slept through all the alarms to wake us up and the delivery guy woke us up through the doorbell. We were all so zonked out while we ate a very early breakfast. But right after that, we went back to sleep. HAHA. Pigs or what. After that, we woke up and because we only had about 3 hours of sleep, we were all very disorientated. I was falling in and out of sleep while on the couch. Left around 4pm and got caught in the rain. And I was feeling grumpy due to the lack of sleep so the night wasn't that good. But I caught Harry Potter with my family and that wasn't too bad although I got a bit bored because it was quite long. But good movie(: (I still want to watch Rapunzel!!)

So that was that. A late night call helped put things in perspective and nudge me in the direction of God. Thankful for that and a timely reminder of the choice made at the very beginning.

"Through the eyes of the world, the situation is less than happy. But because of the conscientious choice to follow God and put Him first, the heart and spirit is contented."

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Think

- Thursday, December 2, 2010 -

Timecheck: 1:08am.

Still surviving well at the sleepover:D Loads of laughter and crazy stuff(; Sleepovers are never the place for studying because I'm not doing any of it right now and my exam is next Tuesday. I just hope being ahead of schedule will give me some extra time in the coming days. But things are hilarious. Hahaha. Love time with my girls:) Starbucks accompanied us through the night and Toffee Nut Mocha Frapp was so awesome! Probably my favorite out of all the 3 Christmas drinks:) Hehe. Happy! But the price is crazy. Not good if you're trying to budget. HAHA. The plan tonight is to try and stay up as late as possible and have Macs breakfast at 4am. I'm not sure how that will work out seeing how we're all sprawled out on the coach, lazing and probably falling asleep soon. Laughed too much and thus, perhaps too tired now. HAHAHA. Great night nonetheless, aside from my phone dying of low batt and an intentional choice to not talk for tonight.

6 more days to exams!! Gah. Howhowhowhow. I'm so not looking forward to it but I'm excited for the end of it:) Fasterrrrr end! I think I'll be so relieved. Bonus would be if it turns out alright. Hoping for a great night after the paper:D Once that is cleared, 3/4 more days before Mission trip! Can't wrap my head around it! So fastttttttt. Ahhh! But looking forward to the trip for sure:D hehe. God is goooood.

Sleepysleepysleepy! Probably gonna get some shut eye soon(:

Every struggle, every insecurity, every uncertainty. It's such a weird journey. God's will above mine. It's not the hardest journey I've been through but it's not an easy one. God, Your strength and guidance please? Surrender.

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