I thank God for my results(: In the midst of everything that's been happening, I conveniently forgot to give God the glory when I saw my results. I was quite certain I would fail World Civilisations. It was such a horrid module and the exams were just terrible. But by God's grace, I managed a C-. It didn't kill my GPA and I'm thankful.

"Hi God,

Thank you so much for seeing me through this semester. There were quite a few distractions and admidst everything, You were still faithful. Thank You for everything. Thank you for how you reminded me to be thankful today. I love you God. Thank you for loving me.

In Jesus' Name,

Amen"

I was feeling awfully grumpy after waking up from an hours' nap. Feels like an emotional ride these two days. Last night also. Felt a strange urge to cry. Thank you for being there for me(: But yeah, it's been weird. So yes, with all that grumpiness, I went to visit my grandmother in the hospital. It was then, as I silently prayed for her, that I made it a choice to be thankful. Not my own decision, because I would rather have just went along with my emotions. I believe it was the Holy Spirit. So after that, once I gave thanks, the feeling disappeared. Spiritual warfare? Tiredness? Loss of focus? Probably. Time to be on my knees.

Was chatting with Jon q and was reminded again about the pre service prayer. It started out pretty strong. But the novelty wore off, and my own prayer life took a downhill turn. It was then, I decided that it wouldn't be best if I was trying to pray for the sake of praying for the ministry. It was always at the back of my mind. There were times of guilt, shame and the feeling of letting God down. I knew, however, that God didn't love me less and His forgiveness, He would not withold. I'm not exactly sure where I stand in my spiritual walk. Neither here nor there. I long for more dependency on God(: Lord, are you trying to say something? Once again, time to be on my knees.