Nicole. 21. Loves God, family and friends. Ready to chill out with anyone. Tries not to hold grudges. Has the funniest brothers in town and loves them to bits. Tries to enjoy every moment. Probably not the best at technological stuffs so kudos to Justin who helped me out with this(:
2 more days(: I'm excited but... ah wells, I think I'll enjoy myself.
Exams ended just yesterday and I've enjoyed the leisure time, slacking and getting the rest whenever I needed it. Thankful for the A i've gotten for Medical Sociology module. I always thought that I would do badly for that module but God surprised me when I kept doing well. It's all creditted to Him because I couldn't have done it at all. I expected to fail the tests and assignments but it didn't happen. Thank You God, so much. Take the honour and the glory.
Just like that, the semester has ended. I remember the start of school and how I really didn't want it to begin. So many changes and so many unknowns. These past few months have been great on the whole. Although January and Feburary posed great challenges with broken communications between different ones, I'm thankful for how everything worked out in the end. I've come to learn and really believe that everything will work out no matter how horrid it may seem while we endure it. The journey is worth it, as long as we have God. I've known no other way it could have worked out so well. Things have improved and change is on it's way.
This holiday, I really hope to experience once again God's love. The change in environment, a taste of one of four seasons, and a good getaway from busy hectic singapore. I guess I'm looking forward quite a lot to it. 17 days should pass by quite quickly right? Hopefully not too quickly and not too slowly also. Hehe.
2pm now! Should get some last minute packing done before heading out(:
< 1:45 PM >
Too Tired To Smile?
- Wednesday, April 13, 2011 -
I'm so mentally drained right now, i probably can't smile. Had to head over to school a little later for a MINDEF pre interview exercise. I initially thought that they would be explaining to us the job scope and what we would be doing if we were selected for the job position but that was not the case. After registering, we were assigned to our seats and on it were 2 pens, 2 pencils and an eraser. When I looked up at the screen, I realised that we were packed full with exercises to do. The first was a self perception test where we were given only 10mins to write anything about ourselves. I was stumped. Haha. Only wrote a short paragraph :/ Right after that was a cognitive test. That one really killed my brain cells. It was difficult! ): This was followed by some personality test. But we were given a break after that and I was glad for it:D 15mins break and we were back into the cold, very cold room for essay writing.
Hur. Essay writing. It was JUST LIKE GENERAL PAPER. Hahah. Except that all the questions were about singapore. Some political, some about technology. I went with how we could foster greater creativity in schools. Seems like a safer choice to me. Wrote and wrote for the entire hour and it was time to turn it in for another personality test yet again. By the time we were done, I was just happy to be out of the room because I was cold and my brain just wasn't functioning properly anymore. Haha. Brain malfunction aside, tomorrow would be my third last day in school with lessons before I get a study break and 2 final papers :) Happy! Looking forward to a break and just chilling for a bit before flipping through my materials for familiarity. And then, bye bye Singapore for about 17days!
Okay, I've got some readings to do before tomorrow rolls by. This semester has been sweet(: But my heart feels empty. Am I avoiding you God? I feel like I may be doing so.
< 8:44 PM >
Need You
- Monday, April 11, 2011 -
Had a soc 485 class and today's topic? Religious movement. We watched a video about Christian home schooling and it was labelled "radical". My lecturer said Marx believed religious movement was good for the human soul but he didn't like it because it changed nothing. Something about being docile and not wanting to change their circumstances. I didn't like how it was put across to us and it seemed to suggest that we christians follow blindly to what is taught to us. However, I was glad to be feeling that way.
It's been a couple of weeks since I last attended VOICES. I don't know what it is but it feels different now. I miss the WEB i attended 5 years ago. I miss the family feel with my wg. I miss the Spirit led worship. I miss the prayer time we were given even though sermon was already prepared. I miss knowing that God was in our midst. Or maybe it's just me. I did feel the need to move on, maybe change church or something. I can't quite put my finger in it. I was afraid that my faith was wavering and that soon, I may just fall away. However, when I felt that way today during lessons, I knew that my convictions had not given way and that I still was a firm believer in Christ. But one must not be complacent.
I need a getaway. I need a spiritual retreat. You are right, maybe 2nd May onwards would be a good time off from the busyness of life in the USA to settle things with God. I'm looking forward to it. I'll miss you. I'll miss many people. Hopefully while I'm there, I get some quiet time to myself and just be open to God's voice.
Everything seems to be going so smoothly. Too smoothly. I've never really had things go my way ever. But if all these means putting my faith aside and going with what the world offers, then no thanks. I still want His will. I still want my life to count in the kingdom of God. I don't need all these temporal satisfaction. I don't need the comforts of this life. I just need God.
< 4:20 PM >
21 more days to US?!?
- Sunday, April 10, 2011 -
A new week is dawning yet again. This is my second last week in school before holidays begin and I fly off to the USA. It's way to fast but I'm looking forward to it(: The next couple if months would be quite interesting i think. My mom urged me to take up driving. I think her sole purpose is so that i can drive her around:/ Whaaat. But oh wells, no harm i think. It's scary to think of driving around the roads though. hur.
Also, I've decided to take up piano once again. After trying my hand on Angel and Angelina's piano the other day, I realised how much I really miss playing the piano. I remember back in P4, I begged my mom to let me learn and I remember being very persistent. Asking and asking. Eventually, I got an electronic piano which I played happily on until my parent bought me a real piano which got me all thrilled(: Now, it's just sitting there without anyone touching it. I miss the sounds it makes and how soothing it can be just playing it. Jon says I should be doing this not for anyone else but for myself and God. He knows how my family complains about the piano sitting there like a white elephant and Joel saying we should just sell it. Gets to me all the time>< I wonder how all these would play out though. It'll be interesting(:
Okay, I've decided I will play a few pieces tomorrow morning when everyone is out of the house. Hopefully everyone will be out because I still feel very self conscious whenever I play. I've not been pracitising so everything's rusty and my fingers trip over one another. Okay. Test tomorrow and I havent studied. HUR.
< 10:09 PM >
For Love of You
- Wednesday, April 6, 2011 -
Hurrr. It's been such a long time since I blogged. Guess I don't really have the habit of blogging. And maybeee cos I don't really know what to put in here. Heh.
The semester is coming to an end:) Suddenly I look back and realise how fast time has flown by so quickly. Just a couple more tests and final examinations and it's done. SUPER FAST. This semester has been great and I can only give all credit to God for the grades I've gotten through these 14 weeks or so. Only by His grace and favor have all these things fallen into place. All glory to God! :D
Holiday are coming and I cannot wait. Flying off on the 2nd of May to the US to visit my relatives and have a shopping spree. Hehe. Must.not.overspend. My cousins don't know I'll be there so it will be a surprise. YAY. Sadly, Evelina cannot come because of school. Wei she me): But oh wells, we'll take many photos so she can be a part. Haha. It's pretty exciting because I hear we'll be camping, sight seeing and shopping((((: However, as much as I'm excited to go overseas, i wish I could stay in singapore. There're people I would like to hang out with. Jon, clique, WG girls, etc. I'm hoping I won't be too jetlagged when I get back. At least I'll be able to spend some time with friends(: OH YES. I only have like 3 or 2 days to get rid of my jetlag before school starts. Tell me how I'm gonna survive:/ Ahh, we'll see):
Okay, short post today. Hopefully I'll get back to my blog soon and be more regular in updating(:
Hey(: Though there have been ups and downs, these 5 plus months have been great(:
Hahaha. So cute.
I'm so mentally drained right now, i probably can't smile. Had to head over to school a little later for a MINDEF pre interview exercise. I initially thought that they would be explaining to us the job scope and what we would be doing if we were selected for the job position but that was not the case. After registering, we were assigned to our seats and on it were 2 pens, 2 pencils and an eraser. When I looked up at the screen, I realised that we were packed full with exercises to do. The first was a self perception test where we were given only 10mins to write anything about ourselves. I was stumped. Haha. Only wrote a short paragraph :/ Right after that was a cognitive test. That one really killed my brain cells. It was difficult! ): This was followed by some personality test. But we were given a break after that and I was glad for it:D 15mins break and we were back into the cold, very cold room for essay writing. 
