Had a soc 485 class and today's topic? Religious movement. We watched a video about Christian home schooling and it was labelled "radical". My lecturer said Marx believed religious movement was good for the human soul but he didn't like it because it changed nothing. Something about being docile and not wanting to change their circumstances. I didn't like how it was put across to us and it seemed to suggest that we christians follow blindly to what is taught to us. However, I was glad to be feeling that way.

It's been a couple of weeks since I last attended VOICES. I don't know what it is but it feels different now. I miss the WEB i attended 5 years ago. I miss the family feel with my wg. I miss the Spirit led worship. I miss the prayer time we were given even though sermon was already prepared. I miss knowing that God was in our midst. Or maybe it's just me. I did feel the need to move on, maybe change church or something. I can't quite put my finger in it. I was afraid that my faith was wavering and that soon, I may just fall away. However, when I felt that way today during lessons, I knew that my convictions had not given way and that I still was a firm believer in Christ. But one must not be complacent.

I need a getaway. I need a spiritual retreat. You are right, maybe 2nd May onwards would be a good time off from the busyness of life in the USA to settle things with God. I'm looking forward to it. I'll miss you. I'll miss many people. Hopefully while I'm there, I get some quiet time to myself and just be open to God's voice.

Everything seems to be going so smoothly. Too smoothly. I've never really had things go my way ever. But if all these means putting my faith aside and going with what the world offers, then no thanks. I still want His will. I still want my life to count in the kingdom of God. I don't need all these temporal satisfaction. I don't need the comforts of this life. I just need God.